things are getting a bit hectic these few weeks. ingatkan boleh relax sikit but nope, working is so tiring lah! especially if it involves walking and hands on work.
usually people will ask me, 'besok keje ke?' just to start a conversation. aku pun selalunya mengaku jelah 'a'ah kerje'. but people might get confuse; eh kata belajar, tapi kerja macamana kan? sometimes, i just dont like to talk about it. tambah lagi nak explain. not that i am kera sumbang, mulut berat ke apa, but sometimes when i said that i still studying, people might think different lah, pelik sebab dah tua still belajar kan. and when they try to be interested in what i am doing right now, it makes me feel like aaargh dah aku malas nak layan.
thanks my friend for understanding. they all jarang tanya soalan resarch apa yang aku buat sekarang ni.
to be honest, even ina my biology scientist friend pun aku tak faham dia buat apa, inikan pulak orang lain. so people, i tak kecik hati pun kalau u alls tak tanya i what kind of research i do. let's talk about latest movie shall we? senang sikit hati i ni hah.
and sepanjang aku start balik belajar ni, banyak kali jugaklah aku mimpikan sv aku. NIGHTMARE OKAY! its like you have been chased by your boss 24/7. dah lah siang pun menghantui hidup kau kan, malam pun nak datang dalam mimpi apa kes? ni kalau sv yang jenis menakutkan lah. bukan jenis yang friendly boleh cerita pasal hal rumah tangga kau kan. but my sv, dia takdelah menakutkan gila barbie tapi kalau jumpa rasa stress.
last time, masa presentation poster kat conference, aku kena redha sebab akan terserempak dengan dia banyak kali. i try to avoid him as much as i could, but he kept on 'appearing' here and there. time nak pergi toilet, time nak lunch, time nak dengar talk pun tiba-tiba beliau menerjah dari belakang tanya
'how's your work?'
and i was with dr Y, the postdoc, all the time. when i was discussing about my poster with dr y, suddenly he came and ask,
'what's going on?'
i don't know, maybe i am depress right now sebab banyak benda tak siap lagi, and the results came out so merepek, i couldn't report him anything but problems. i dont mind if i face lots of trouble doing lab work sebab dari situ kita belajar kan. aku cube lah nak positive but being a supervisor, he said 'i'm worried about you' olus all the negative thought.
|maybe i will be winning one day. just dont know when.|
oh ya, this is me with my poster last 2 weeks; poster tak menang pun. but puas hati. :)
|the poster and i|
ps: hopefully one day, i can be a good sv..