hesitation is not good. it makes you think more. mana yang lebih baik, mana yang lebih buruk. you feel scared of the future. you keep on thinking about something that is not in your hands yet.
being normal is good.you have a degree, you have a job, you have a good pay, and you can afford to buy a house, or houses.
ooh i wish i can be normal like that. only God knows why the grad students are so keen to keep on holding to this academia pole.
or maybe we dont have so many choices? or only the lucky ones who enter this field will get to be normal?
yes, sometimes i feel like i am not lucky enough to have a normal life. or maybe because i am not normal, so i need to live like one.
yeah maybe deep inside my heart, i love this job very much. the job that doesn't pay you much but give you and the world a big impact. the job when you are so proud to have those data published in ISI journal. The job that give you full satisfaction and much free time. the job that doesn't pay you much.
one thing ~ it should be worth in the future.