everything is just so s''' today. weekend here is just not my day bluargh!

i'm soooo hungry. even i've already ate 1 bungkus of rice and a drumstick bakar madu and 2 slices of sotong kurita sambal, yogurt, mineral water almost half, and a small pack of green guava and mixed with asam boi sedap which i bought at pagoh last week. ok, jambu dibeli di kedai kolej, not in pagoh what ever..

and maybe i was soo stress of what happen today and the weather is getting gloomier. ok ok.. everything was okay when i ate all the foods that i mentioned just now. then i peeked at my cells in the flask (this is is so technical) ceh ceh ceh! got ulat inside them i feel like i wanted to scream. but i am a patient girl, i know how to deal with all these kind of stupid things so i washed and washed so that i can get rid of that stupid ulat but no, they are still there and i just stuff those flasks into the incubator again and hope to be okay (and i am sure tomorow the ulat will reproduce again contaminating all my cells, i don't know).

and after that, i was surfing the cimb clicks, and transferring money and suddenly the page cannot be displayed. apehal? than i was so kelam kabut packed up and headed home (home means my residential college) because i was hoping that there will be an internet connection (wireless konon) and i was so cuak because it involves money! OMG what if suddenly there's someone broke into m account and stole all these money? waaaa..!(ok, i have not much money but still..).

i headed back home, sidai baju sebab panas sangat (and hopefully the clothes are dried soon) and went to the student centre. wireless konon! while waiting the internet connection, the rain was pouring down and yes, all my clothes KONFOM basah! i hate to see the screen gone blank without any internet access (2 bars okay! still no connection ke? stupid!) so i packed again my stuff, buy jambu and went to my room. call encik boyfriend he was hanging out with this pakcik datang dari sabah, apakah?. FINE! i deal this myself...!

so now i am in ce.pp dealing with stuff and thank God the internet connection here is extremely good.

and i don't know what's my plan next, i have no mood in writing, reading and stuff. so maybe i'll buy a mcvalue meal drive through after this. i was planning to go to jusco, and think about buying something but i have no money, and i also think that i can go to jakell for kain ela and that also involving money. so i just grab something to eat after this.

yeah..

that's all..

i'm release...

you are so far away. how should i spend my time today?

other than searching more journals, the correlation between glucose uptake and lactate realease, the difference between ethanolic and water extract of herbs, outline of research design, search on how to make a mass balance for both extractions. plus, why i face the contamination problem again? why while doing the MTT assay, the cells detached? why i can't found a better explanation for all of these? and why and why and why?

and why am i spending my time ALONE and AGAIN today?

enough said. i am a loner. oh i wish i can have friends to hang out with. and wish him to be here.

how i wish...

drug discovery dan ape tah.

bila balik dari kl, drive pulak tu, hari isnin pulak tu --tiba-tiba hari selasa mereka berkata 'khamis kita pergi kl untuk dengar talk di uk.m kl'. ergh!!!!

maka, rabu selepas main badminton dengan semangat nan waja bajet tak mahu tidur langsung sebab bas pukul 3 pagi berikutnya tapi tidur jugak tak tahan mata. bertolaklah jalan kaki dari kolej ke f.ab (sebab kolej gate besar sudah kunci) tempat berkumpul biasa dengn kamini last-last kitorang sampai dulu and bas pulak bertolak pukul 4.30 am ^*&*%^$^$^&(*)_(*(&(..tertekan ako!

tapi nak buat macam mana, dengan semangat juga sepanjang perjalanan tidur saje nyenyak pulak tu terus, makan nasi lemak basi kat pagoh (tanpa disedari) dan makan mi sup pulak. lepas tu sampai muka sememeh gila tanpa mandi (mandi pukul 2.30 pagi) mata pisat-pisat masuk talk. nasib baik talk sedap didengar hanya satu talk memang tak tahan mata terus tidur lagi (kali ni hebat sebab rasanya tidak tersengguk-sengguk. maintain konon dengar talk padahal mata pejam)

4.30 petang terus chow balik johore semula. singgah pagoh makan pau amira yang sedap. sampai bilik terus pengsan..

adoi, what a day!

i like the old cleo

masa dulu-dulu sangat devoted pada cleo yang lama. maksud cleo yang lama adalah cleo masa tahun 2008, 2007, 2006, 2005 dan sebelum-sebelumnya. bila first keluar mini cleo masa jan 2009, terus teruja dan ingin memiliki. terus beli dan jatuh cinta buat kali ke lapan belas. tapi bila selak, adeh sedih pulak isi sudah semakin kurang la. jadi tunggu bulan berikutnya sebab mana tahu sebab dia kecik, maka isi pun mungkin kurang..

tengok tebal pun dah teruja-uja..

jadi bila tunggu bulan berikutnya isi tetap sama. tak puas baca sebab tak banyak isi. tebal pun dah tak berapa tebal dah tapi tetap beli jugak sebab dah addict sangat. maka tunggu sampai bulan lepas terus beli women's weekly atas alasan 'gua sudah dewasa'. plus, saya boleh belajar masak, belajar bela anak, belajar jadi mama vogue what so over.

see? even it teaches you how to play the family politics.

dan ternampak cleo lama-lama dulu ada yang tersimpan kat lab, ada yang simpan kat office, terus ambil balik dan baca balik dan riang balik. sebab i miss the old cleo. haish, i should send something yang feedback kat depan-depan majalah tu kan? so i boleh dapat gifts. eheh..

house keeping ya'll!

sebab sudah mahu pindah, jadi abah dan emak sudah suruh berkemas-kemas. jadi terpaksalah punggah segala bagai khazanah yang ada di dalam kotak di bawah katil. punggah punya punggah, terjumpalah segala khazanah lama seperti kertas-kertas merepek di bawah ini;

ini encik boifren yang bagi kerana terlalu cinta pada saya. eceh. i want to spend my lifetime loving you okeh!

ini adalah hasil seni sangat minat gila dengan marshall mathers aka eminem, lalu tulis lagu the kids untuk disemadikan. tulis ini masa tingkatan 5 dulu..

ini adalah hasil karya semasa matriks dulu. obviously adalah robot dari kulit album linkin park yang hebat. lalu lukis dan semadikan dalam poster untuk hari IT ke hapa tah dah tak ingat. gila gempak lukisan itu kerana kepala otak group semua kreatif maka lukis dua robot yang sedang berlawan siap ade bumi kat tengah.


ini adalah saat-saat menjiwangkan diri. sambil bosan sambil rindu maka lukis perkara yang bukan-bukan. terus lekat kat softboard bilik..

ini juga hasil yang boleh kata membanggakan juge kerana hasil dari kelendar lama, potong-potong, lekas-lekat maka jadilah jadual kelas. yang rompong itu sudah tercabut..maklumlah, jadual masa second year dulu..

tayangan perdana the exorcism.

memandangkan hari ini adalah halloween, maka memang tidak ada kena mengena pun dengan saya. tapi AXN kat tv pulak beria-ria menayangkan cerita hantu secara back to back jadi, saya tengok jelah untuk tujuan mencabar jantung dan tahap ketakutan. tapi sempat tengok cerita the exorcism of Emily rose ajewrh. cerita sebelum tu the covenant and sebelum-sebelum itu, the 13 ghost.

cerita emily rose ini dah banyak kali tengok sebenarnya, tapi masih ingin tengok sebab sangat real (and of course, based on the true story kan?) and everytime saya lihat cerita ini, saya mesti ingat 'our frens forever time' during 3rd year cuti semester sebulan tu. azx, nora and me were spending time together sebab masing-masing duduk secara haram di bilik sewaan azx. first sebab nak buat lab, and second, we were one of the volunteers for hari sukan wanita kebangsaan that time. masa tu kebetulan jumpa azx somewhere, i tak ingat but ended up berkumpul satu bilik, sambung katil dan main ayam telur kat laptop azx sepanjang sebulan itu.

and that time we were watching emily rose. konon berani tapi sempat buat lawak bangang tengok aksi kejung emily rose dalam cerita tu. and then azx kate;

"kau bayangkan kalau kau bangun PUKUL 3 PAGI tepat pulak tu, tengok-tengok aku tengah kejung kat bawah. ape perasaan kau?" sambil kau buat aksi kejung itu,

"aku kira la one, two, three, four, five, six!"

and sejak itu, terus one two three four five six and ayat kejung gelemer.

and i remember masa tu henfon nora kena curi dalam bilik lepas tu terus kucing-kucing belaan nora kat depan pintu kena marah dengan azx sebab tak jaga bilik.

and ada satu part, bile semua orang sampai bilik, bilik kena pecah masuk dengan monyet. red bean kena makan, roti hilang sebuku, megi hilang, telur pecah seluruh bilik, sekian terima kasih cik puan monyet.

and ada satu part juga saya berduet dengan azx lagu aerosmith dengan penuh perasaan siap ada part-part jerit and part-part tarik high pitch kasi tinggi sikit. and ada jua duet lagu shaggy you are my angel. of course, azx tukang sambung part shaggy itu (awa, uh, shaggy, yo!).

and that time kami tiga orang gigih naik train pergi upm untuk dapat rm30 sehari sebab jadi volunteer (pengalaman yang best!). and sepanjang 10 hari di bukit jalil itu, hari-hari juge ke endah parade untuk makan kfc dan habiskan 30rm yang dapat setiap 2 hari...

and masa itu juga saya gemuk chubby tembam tak hengat..

i wish i could turn back time. (except for tembam chubby gemuk punye part..)

can i stop whinng already?

yesterday, when i opened up my sacred book of labwork, and browse my chapter 4 of results and discussion, i suddenly tense. i suddenly feel that this is not enough. and my head kept on thinking of what should i conclude here. before this, everythings looked fine and i am confident enough that i can submit my thesis at least on january next year. but after i checked back all the results i don't know how to conclude! oh God please help me!